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So today is really a dreary day as its raining off and on again but hey nothing is gonna stop me from reaching my goals. Im still losing we...

Monday, July 6, 2015

Sometimes its hard to be positive!!

Sometimes its hard to remain in a happy positive place all the time. I have so much to be thankful for but sometimes its  a struggle. I think this summer has been challenging for me, partly because I had my plans and life had its and just kicked me to the curve. I set a goal or goals keep in mind and I have been stressed to the max reaching them. Ok like, I set out to exercise everyday and focus on being more active and it went down the drain as soon as I am awaken all nights of the hour of my kids breaking my rest every night along with a host of crazziness Ugh... ok so now the cranky bear gets up early too and has to make breakfast. Keep in mind this has been an on-going thing since Summer has started. I also took on another responsibility watching my 8 year old cousin to be a support to my family back at home in Oklahoma. Oh never mind that I live in California!! Lol I know!! So here I have my 2 small sons and a now little girl and its like a mad house. I have everything from ear aches, tummy aches, rashes, head aches, foot aches, every ache you can imagine in a matter of a few weeks. So as you can imagine I have been stressed to high holy hell if that is even possibly clear!! So my diet......or eating habit has been crappy. I have managed to exercise a little but compared to what my goal was.... I totally suck big time!! I did get a little break and went to Vegas where I came back a 5 pounds lighter from all the damn walking on the strip we did. Sounds good huh?? I put that back on as soon as I came back to deal with a family brawl!! I had more family in town. Have you ever been happy to see people come and happy to see them leave ok thats where I was and am at now. I gotta get my emotions in check. One thing I learned about myself throughout this week is that I care for people (family) so much I push myself to the back all the time. I'm more of the mother hen keeping things in check around me while my shit falls a part. I gotta stop doing this to myself. Those same family folk aint around when I need them most either so why do I take myself through this?????Today I got to pick myself up for tomorrow is another day to begin again. Doing this shit for me for positive gains!!!
Stay on this journey with me and I promise we will come out on top!

No one said it would be easy and it so hard at times to stay positive but PUSH!!
I KNOW I WILL!!! ;)