Sometimes its hard to remain in a happy positive place all the time. I have so much to be thankful for but sometimes its a struggle. I think this summer has been challenging for me, partly because I had my plans and life had its and just kicked me to the curve. I set a goal or goals keep in mind and I have been stressed to the max reaching them. Ok like, I set out to exercise everyday and focus on being more active and it went down the drain as soon as I am awaken all nights of the hour of my kids breaking my rest every night along with a host of crazziness Ugh... ok so now the cranky bear gets up early too and has to make breakfast. Keep in mind this has been an on-going thing since Summer has started. I also took on another responsibility watching my 8 year old cousin to be a support to my family back at home in Oklahoma. Oh never mind that I live in California!! Lol I know!! So here I have my 2 small sons and a now little girl and its like a mad house. I have everything from ear aches, tummy aches, rashes, head aches, foot aches, every ache you can imagine in a matter of a few weeks. So as you can imagine I have been stressed to high holy hell if that is even possibly clear!! So my diet......or eating habit has been crappy. I have managed to exercise a little but compared to what my goal was.... I totally suck big time!! I did get a little break and went to Vegas where I came back a 5 pounds lighter from all the damn walking on the strip we did. Sounds good huh?? I put that back on as soon as I came back to deal with a family brawl!! I had more family in town. Have you ever been happy to see people come and happy to see them leave ok thats where I was and am at now. I gotta get my emotions in check. One thing I learned about myself throughout this week is that I care for people (family) so much I push myself to the back all the time. I'm more of the mother hen keeping things in check around me while my shit falls a part. I gotta stop doing this to myself. Those same family folk aint around when I need them most either so why do I take myself through this?????Today I got to pick myself up for tomorrow is another day to begin again. Doing this shit for me for positive gains!!!
Stay on this journey with me and I promise we will come out on top!
No one said it would be easy and it so hard at times to stay positive but PUSH!!
I KNOW I WILL!!! ;)
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