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Through My Eyes
Im not sure about anybody else but my issue with my weightloss journey thus far is that, I cant ever figure out what to eat!!! Ugh I get bored and have found out (about myself if you can imagine) that I generally dont stick to a healthier diet if I get bored with eating rabbit food or anything similar!!! Ok look the way I look at it is, I'm a big girl and I didn't get this way eating salads (I love them just not every dang day!! Gesh!!) that way and so how am I expecting myself to stick with that!!!! On top of that my idea of a salad is very different from healthy.....Dont act like Im the only one with this problem..... What do you mean you say??? Well, I'm glad you asked..... (My salad)
Ok so first I start off with salad green mix, cucumber, tomatoes, red onions, black olives, banana peppers...then the really good part!!! Ranch dressing, CHEESE shredded and lots of it Thanks!!, and maybe even a little greek crumbs and maybe just a little more shredded cheese....MMmm.. oh yeah and a little carrot (sigh) Oh wait DONT FORGET THE CROUTONS!!!CROUTONS!! CROUTONS!!! Hopefully by now you see why I cant eat it everyday... Its not healthy for me!!! So Now, knowing this about myself I did a little digging and decided to look up healthier options and found a recipe I'm trying tonight Yay!! Im sharing the link here in my blog so feel free to take a glance and maybe even try it with me!! Tonight on the menu is Almond Crusted Tilapia, steamed lemon pepper spinach, and a baked sweet potatoe Yummy Right?? I thought so too!! NOM!!! IM HUNGRY ALREADY!! Anyway, Thanks for reading and feel free to respond back.
Sometimes its hard to remain in a happy positive place all the time. I have so much to be thankful for but sometimes its a struggle. I think this summer has been challenging for me, partly because I had my plans and life had its and just kicked me to the curve. I set a goal or goals keep in mind and I have been stressed to the max reaching them. Ok like, I set out to exercise everyday and focus on being more active and it went down the drain as soon as I am awaken all nights of the hour of my kids breaking my rest every night along with a host of crazziness Ugh... ok so now the cranky bear gets up early too and has to make breakfast. Keep in mind this has been an on-going thing since Summer has started. I also took on another responsibility watching my 8 year old cousin to be a support to my family back at home in Oklahoma. Oh never mind that I live in California!! Lol I know!! So here I have my 2 small sons and a now little girl and its like a mad house. I have everything from ear aches, tummy aches, rashes, head aches, foot aches, every ache you can imagine in a matter of a few weeks. So as you can imagine I have been stressed to high holy hell if that is even possibly clear!! So my diet......or eating habit has been crappy. I have managed to exercise a little but compared to what my goal was.... I totally suck big time!! I did get a little break and went to Vegas where I came back a 5 pounds lighter from all the damn walking on the strip we did. Sounds good huh?? I put that back on as soon as I came back to deal with a family brawl!! I had more family in town. Have you ever been happy to see people come and happy to see them leave ok thats where I was and am at now. I gotta get my emotions in check. One thing I learned about myself throughout this week is that I care for people (family) so much I push myself to the back all the time. I'm more of the mother hen keeping things in check around me while my shit falls a part. I gotta stop doing this to myself. Those same family folk aint around when I need them most either so why do I take myself through this?????Today I got to pick myself up for tomorrow is another day to begin again. Doing this shit for me for positive gains!!!
Stay on this journey with me and I promise we will come out on top!
No one said it would be easy and it so hard at times to stay positive but PUSH!!
I KNOW I WILL!!! ;)
So the last few days have been quite eventful. Since having company here in my home, things have been different. I have not only been able to work out but have been able to monitor my intake. This journey I must say it's quite hard. I've done a lot of things in my life with success and ease, however this remains to be my greatest challenge. When you're working out and you can hear your heart beating through your ears, you wonder why did you let yourself get this far gone. Looking back over my life minus birthing my children; I could definitely see how I could have been more active. It's no one else's fault but my own. Sure I can blame it on genetics, blame it on family upbringing ( traditional habits) and even find an excuse to say well I had 2 kids; in the end I'm the only one who can be blamed and also the only one who can fix the problems concerning my journey. There was a time that you would never have gotten me to put my business or anything personal out there on the line; but I'm blogging because it holds me accountable for not only the things that I say but also keeps me accountable for the things that I'm tracking in order to change. I guess in a way blogging is a mirror you see the good, the bad, the ugly, and the real me.
I've been spending a lot of time at the beach I can not only center myself but get a great workout. When I get home I'm satisfied with the work that I have put in I feel great and have the deep desire to keep going. After a good workout zI really have no desire to put bad food in, this is why I must keep exercising. I really am tired of this weight!! I can't take it no more!!! I really got to Push!!!!!
Who ever is reading this and you have the same struggles; know that you are not alone!!! Im here to encourage you and myself along this path. You have a friend in me. :)
Today I had a little help from a family member (lil sister) she whip my butt working out today. Omg I have never felt like I wanted to throw up so bad!!! She told me not to eat but crazy me insisted that I must have two small pan cakes and a small piece of turkey sausage. I know some may say you are not serious enough but I am!!! Others may say that was nothing and it was ok to eat a good breakfast in the A.M. to provide energy..... ok maybe not that type of meal and I know I could have done better for sure but I said all that to say that it kicked my butt!!! My workout was made extremely difficult because of the heaviness I felt running besides the weight I am lugging.
Did I mention that my sister is military??? Yeah I know!!! I should have known better!!!!!! Next time I will listen attentivley.
So we ran 2 miles! I WASN'T READY!!! IN MY KEVIN HART VOICE!!!
We were on the beach and I was tryin to save face and not appear to look like a total loser but I couldn't breathe so after awhile I was like screw this and pushed harder and was ok with stopping when I needed. Tourist from all over the world and here I was, giving my all and what would have been an insecurity, was actually self gratifying to know I could push past people looking at me.
In fact there were people all over from all walks of life and more than a few could have used being out there right along with me!! Oh well I'll keep going until I reach the top!! Yes I messed up and had to fix it. I burned 800+ calories in my workout and felt awesome and tired all in one!! No better feeling knowing I did it for me!!! So when will you start? Lets do it together!!